Your girl is at the biggest crossroad of her life to date! I was planning on finding a second job to help keep me "Comfortable!" Get ahead on a few things financially and have a good savings! But, every time I look for something or go in for an interview, I get this feeling like I am not suppose to be doing this! Funny, right, I am trying to get on top of things and it doesn't feel right! Then, while I was at work yesterday, it hit me! I have a job, I have an apartment, and my job gives me just enough to barely squeeze by! Tiff, use your time to train! Not to pick up a second job! I was planning to start training again for boxing and singing in a couple months after I had made things a lil bit easier for myself, but that is just not how life works now is it! Ha ha!
It's going to definitely try me physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually! Its also saying alright Tiff, this is how much you believe in yourself, you are giving yourself the opportunity to fall on your face or exceed everyone's expectations! (Including your own!) Yes!!! This is what I have been waiting for! A chance to be backed into a corner, to show that there is no keeping me in there for long!
Not only will I be sacrificing financially, I will be giving up my social life completely! I have been told on countless occassions that that makes me certifiable! Ha ha! But, they don't get it! I will sacrifice for a few years tops to get things going and create the best life for my family and myself possible! To achieve my dreams and show myself that I can do what I set out to do! I can party and date later, girl is still just a pup and has plenty of time ha ha! It's all about priorities and right now that is God, my Faith, and making a better life for my family and I! My real friends will understand and will stick by me, so I don't have to worry about that!
I have been asked on a few occassions, how do you stay so motivated!? It's not easy, staying motivated is like staying clean! You can't just take a shower and be good for the rest of your life! You have to take one everyday! The same goes with being motivated! You have to work on it everyday! Growing up as a football coaches kid and athlete has helped! I am very competitive and am very driven! Trust me, there was a period of my life when I wasn't motivated and didn't care about anything or anyone! I was bitter about my failures and took it out on everyone but myself! I made excuses and some of them were legit! Then, something that my dad had constantly taught us, finally sank in! Regardless of the situation or the other people involved, it is my responsibilty to get things done! Let me give you a sports example! My dad constantly told us, if you come home and complain about the ref's, you are done playing sports! I didn't get why he said that at first, then it clicked! Don't blame the ref's for how you are playing or for the score being what it is! Take responsibility for your actions and step up your game! The ref and his calls or lack of them are just another obstacle, so what are you gonna do about it!? You can bi#$@ about it or you can step it up and out play them! Same goes in life! There is always gonna be something or someone that is gonna get in your way. You can either be a Mary about it and wallow in self pity (PATHETIC!!) or you can step it up and find a way around it! It's not always gonna be easy, in fact it will be hard, but that is how life is suppose to be! We live in this society of I want it now, oh but you can just give it to me because I don't want to do anything to earn it or work for it! WRONG!! You don't want to put in the work, you sure as hell don't deserve the outcome! YOU CAN'T WAKE UP A ROOKIE AND GO TO BED A CHAMPION! YOU HAVE TO PUT IN THE WORK! ~ TIFFANY LARSON I live my life by that everyday! So stop being a lazy ass and get to work! Don't want too, fine, but don't complain about not having what you want out of life, because nobody is just gonna hand you what you want on a silver platter! Besides, even if that could happen, you would be missing out on the best part! A sense of accomplishment! The feeling you get when you have succeeded and you get to look back and be so proud of putting in all that HARD work and sacrifice to get to where you are at! In the words of my boy Nelly, "If HARD work pays off then EASY work is WORTHLESS!!" Get up and do something! In the words of my Grandpa Clark (May he rest in peace) "Unless you are on your death bed, get your ass out of bed and do something! Even then, get your ass out of bed and do something!" Hated hearing it then, but love to say it now!!
It's the beginning of a new chapter and baby girl is so excited! Its a beautiful thing baby! Its a beautiful thing!!
XoXo
Dedicated Diva
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
The old and the new!
Today has been a great day! I was able to talk to my brother who is serving an LDS mission in New York thru IM!! I miss him so much and I hate not being able to talk to him like I use too, but I know he is where he is suppose to be right now. I also got to talking to one of my girls from high school! The conversation of love and being friends with guys came up! (Of course it did ha ha what else do you think we talk about ha ha!)
As we were finishing up our conversation, it got me thinking about my past experiences and friendships with certain guys in my life! Looking back, things never came together easily in a good way! The drama def came easily ha ha Go figure! I am not saying that relationships of any kind should be easy cause they aren't! You have to work at it everyday, but in the beginning, that is the suppose to be the easy part! When you see him/her for the first time, you know something is different about them! You can't quite put your finger on it. Then the way you guys connect and get along will be so natural, you will feel like you have known each other forever! You can make each other laugh and feel better when each other has had a stressful or bad day/week! You will get each other! Its easy to be around each other and there is an awesome attraction and chemistry! At least thats how I imagine it happening ha ha! I wanna fall in love with my best friend, because as great as the chemistry and physical attraction are, you have to want to hang out with them after all that! Ha ha! You'd think that that would be common sense right!? I know that good looks can def cloud the mind, but your girl is holding out for her best friend and I encourage you to do the same! It will make your relationship that much better! Just think, you have someone to have all that "fun" with, that physical attraction, but you also have someone who you want to spend time with and you have fun together and vice versa! You have someone who has your back and supports you in what you do! Someone who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person and vice versa! Someone who reminds you that you are an amazing person and have so much to offer the world!! Something that I want, and it may sound crazy, is someone who isn't afraid to fight with me! Ha ha both people need to fight fair, but arguments are healthy for the relationship, in more ways then one if you feel me! Ha ha!
Life is too short to put up with people who don't deserve you or what you have to offer! Raise the bar but don't be insane with your standards and watch who will come out of the woodwork! It could be the guy/girl that lives down the hall, the guy/girl that you run into from time to time, or it could be someone who is already in your life and the time is just not right yet! Don't force it! Enjoy life and what you have and everything will happen in a natural way! It will come together so smoothly it might be scary ha ha but embrace it and enjoy it!
Lots of love! Lots of prays! And def a lil bit of raising hell! (Gotta have balance right ha ha!)
Dedicated Diva
As we were finishing up our conversation, it got me thinking about my past experiences and friendships with certain guys in my life! Looking back, things never came together easily in a good way! The drama def came easily ha ha Go figure! I am not saying that relationships of any kind should be easy cause they aren't! You have to work at it everyday, but in the beginning, that is the suppose to be the easy part! When you see him/her for the first time, you know something is different about them! You can't quite put your finger on it. Then the way you guys connect and get along will be so natural, you will feel like you have known each other forever! You can make each other laugh and feel better when each other has had a stressful or bad day/week! You will get each other! Its easy to be around each other and there is an awesome attraction and chemistry! At least thats how I imagine it happening ha ha! I wanna fall in love with my best friend, because as great as the chemistry and physical attraction are, you have to want to hang out with them after all that! Ha ha! You'd think that that would be common sense right!? I know that good looks can def cloud the mind, but your girl is holding out for her best friend and I encourage you to do the same! It will make your relationship that much better! Just think, you have someone to have all that "fun" with, that physical attraction, but you also have someone who you want to spend time with and you have fun together and vice versa! You have someone who has your back and supports you in what you do! Someone who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person and vice versa! Someone who reminds you that you are an amazing person and have so much to offer the world!! Something that I want, and it may sound crazy, is someone who isn't afraid to fight with me! Ha ha both people need to fight fair, but arguments are healthy for the relationship, in more ways then one if you feel me! Ha ha!
Life is too short to put up with people who don't deserve you or what you have to offer! Raise the bar but don't be insane with your standards and watch who will come out of the woodwork! It could be the guy/girl that lives down the hall, the guy/girl that you run into from time to time, or it could be someone who is already in your life and the time is just not right yet! Don't force it! Enjoy life and what you have and everything will happen in a natural way! It will come together so smoothly it might be scary ha ha but embrace it and enjoy it!
Lots of love! Lots of prays! And def a lil bit of raising hell! (Gotta have balance right ha ha!)
Dedicated Diva
Friday, October 8, 2010
Xtra! Xtra!
So I know I have already written for tonight, but I felt very impressed to share this! We live in a world of scary times, hard times, and sometimes it feels like we will never see the light at the end of the tunnel! But, one of the things that we forget is how truly blessed we are, especially us Americans! Even the poorest man, woman and child have it so much better then a lot of the other parts of the world! So, try something! Just for the next week and tell me if this doesn't absolutely change your life! Even in the hardest and darkest of times, I want you to find the positive in the situation! Find it and dwell on that! You will be amazed at what will happen when you focus more on the positive then the negative!
I am also impressed to share something with my girls! Fellas, you are more then happy to continue reading, but I will be directing this towards my girls!
Ladies! I have watched so many beautiful, talented, amazing girls settle for less then they deserve! I am not pointing the finger either, because I have been that girl more then once! Whether you are "addicted" to the bad boy or just feel like you don't deserve the best, I have been there! Girls, if you only knew the kind of power you have over a man just by being a woman! It is insane!! It sucks to be alone and everybody wants to be loved, but just think of the amazing guys you are missing out on because you are stickin with these losers! Plus, guys are gonna treat you how you let them treat you! You have to raise the bar! Once you do that and stick to your guns, the boys will start to disappear and the men will start steppin up their game! Because real men want a high class girl! (Ha ha not high maintenance, but high class!)
I definitely went through my "I Hate Men Phase!" a couple different times ha ha! I thought all men were the same and that they were all dogs! None of them deserved such a gift like me and I was ready to live my life single and die that way! I had it all planned out! I was gonna have a couple dogs and adopt! Tiffany Larson did not need a man! But, as time went on, I grew out of that insanely unattractive crazy phase ha ha! I learned that I cannot judge one man by another mans actions! On top of that, I also met a man who would end up changing my life forever! He was very different from all the other guys I would encounter! He was respectful, easy to get along with, a complete gentleman and someone I admired very much! He helped me see that while there are definitely those jerks, (Kanye wrote their national anthem ha ha!) there are also amazing men out there who know how to treat a woman like the Goddess that she is! We are still friends to this day and I am so grateful to have him be apart of my life and a constant reminder of what I want in my future!!
It may not be what you want to hear, because it sure wasn't what I wanted to hear for sure! But, everything has its own time! You need to be in a place where you are ready for him to be apart of your life and he needs to be in a place where he is ready to have you be apart of his! You can't rush it! Ask yourself this, do I want to try and rush love to fill my satisfaction now, or do I want to let it take its course and have it be a lasting relationship! Num 2!? Good choice! Don't wait around for Mr. Right! Go out into the world and do something for you or for others! Get involved! Not only do you grow as a person, but you also are giving yourself the opportunity to meet more people and up your chances of meeting someone that much sooner! And for crying out loud! DO NOT CHASE THEM!!! Make the guys work for it! You are an amazing thing that his rear end is lucky just to be breathing the same air! ha ha! If he is too stupid not to completely put in the time and effort to show you that he wants you, kick his ass to the curb! Sure he may have been gorgeous but gorgeous only gets you so far! And!! If he is one of those guys that gives that lame ass excuse of being afraid of rejection.. NEWS FLASH... WE ALL ARE!! But, make him be the man! He is called a man for a reason, better make him step up and start acting like one! Real men are not afraid to go after what they want! Even if there is a possibility of rejection!! Wait for the guy who knows what an amazing thing he has in front of him! The guy who come hell or high water is not gonna let anything stand in his way of trying to get you! My girls! You deserve the best! That's it, no if's, and's, or but's!
Dedicated Diva
I am also impressed to share something with my girls! Fellas, you are more then happy to continue reading, but I will be directing this towards my girls!
Ladies! I have watched so many beautiful, talented, amazing girls settle for less then they deserve! I am not pointing the finger either, because I have been that girl more then once! Whether you are "addicted" to the bad boy or just feel like you don't deserve the best, I have been there! Girls, if you only knew the kind of power you have over a man just by being a woman! It is insane!! It sucks to be alone and everybody wants to be loved, but just think of the amazing guys you are missing out on because you are stickin with these losers! Plus, guys are gonna treat you how you let them treat you! You have to raise the bar! Once you do that and stick to your guns, the boys will start to disappear and the men will start steppin up their game! Because real men want a high class girl! (Ha ha not high maintenance, but high class!)
I definitely went through my "I Hate Men Phase!" a couple different times ha ha! I thought all men were the same and that they were all dogs! None of them deserved such a gift like me and I was ready to live my life single and die that way! I had it all planned out! I was gonna have a couple dogs and adopt! Tiffany Larson did not need a man! But, as time went on, I grew out of that insanely unattractive crazy phase ha ha! I learned that I cannot judge one man by another mans actions! On top of that, I also met a man who would end up changing my life forever! He was very different from all the other guys I would encounter! He was respectful, easy to get along with, a complete gentleman and someone I admired very much! He helped me see that while there are definitely those jerks, (Kanye wrote their national anthem ha ha!) there are also amazing men out there who know how to treat a woman like the Goddess that she is! We are still friends to this day and I am so grateful to have him be apart of my life and a constant reminder of what I want in my future!!
It may not be what you want to hear, because it sure wasn't what I wanted to hear for sure! But, everything has its own time! You need to be in a place where you are ready for him to be apart of your life and he needs to be in a place where he is ready to have you be apart of his! You can't rush it! Ask yourself this, do I want to try and rush love to fill my satisfaction now, or do I want to let it take its course and have it be a lasting relationship! Num 2!? Good choice! Don't wait around for Mr. Right! Go out into the world and do something for you or for others! Get involved! Not only do you grow as a person, but you also are giving yourself the opportunity to meet more people and up your chances of meeting someone that much sooner! And for crying out loud! DO NOT CHASE THEM!!! Make the guys work for it! You are an amazing thing that his rear end is lucky just to be breathing the same air! ha ha! If he is too stupid not to completely put in the time and effort to show you that he wants you, kick his ass to the curb! Sure he may have been gorgeous but gorgeous only gets you so far! And!! If he is one of those guys that gives that lame ass excuse of being afraid of rejection.. NEWS FLASH... WE ALL ARE!! But, make him be the man! He is called a man for a reason, better make him step up and start acting like one! Real men are not afraid to go after what they want! Even if there is a possibility of rejection!! Wait for the guy who knows what an amazing thing he has in front of him! The guy who come hell or high water is not gonna let anything stand in his way of trying to get you! My girls! You deserve the best! That's it, no if's, and's, or but's!
Dedicated Diva
Lucky Girl!
Today has been an easy and lazy day to say the least! Continually realizing that your girl is one lucky chicka and very blessed to have the amazing people that I do in my life! From family, old friends, new friends, and kindred spirits...I cannot complain! One thing I have learned in life is that no material or worldly thing or success is ever worth having or achieving if the people you love are not in your life! I am lucky to have people who support and love me unconditionally in everything I do!
My aunt is getting married tomorrow to an amazing man! He has been such a blessing in hers and our lives! I am excited to have him be apart of my family and to be able to be apart of his! Again, I am a lucky girl! I have so many great examples of true love in my life to observe and learn from! From my incredible parents to my grandparents and aunts and uncles! I don't plan on getting married anytime soon (sorry parents no grand babies just yet.. at least not from me ha ha!) but I look forward to the day that I can share my life with an amazing man! Someone I can take care of and will take care of me. Someone who is my best friend! Someone who gets my crazy personality and twisted sense of humor! Someone I trust and is easy to open up too! Someone I can stay up all night talking to and laugh with over everything and anything! Right now I am focused on my career so I can help provide a great life for my current family and for my future family! But trust your girl! I am gonna be the best wife and mother you have ever seen! I am gonna have so much fun taking care of my man and raising an amazing family with him! Until then, I am bustin my booty to make my dreams reality and getting myself prepared financially, mentally, physically, and spiritually to one day fall in love and start a family! Like I said before, it'll all happen in due time! One of my favorite quotes: "Ladies, dance with God, He will let the perfect man cut in!"
Still on the grind and hustlin like crazy! So grateful for the job I have now, but if I can pick up a second one, baby girl can really get ahead of the game and get things crackin 10x faster!
I've said it so many times before and I will probably say it millions more! I love my life! It is the hardest time I have ever been through and the best all at the same time! The people that have come into my life in the past month are some pretty amazing people and I can't wait to continue on this amazing journey with them! Some will just be passing thru my life and others will stay, but I know that all of them have had an awesome impact on my life and I hope I have done the same for them!
I was able to talk to my mom for 1/2 hr tonight! I haven't been able to do that in over a month! I still shouldn't have tonight, but she is my best friend and it has been so hard not to be able to talk to her like that everyday! That is the only thing I hate about my life here in Cali, my family is not here! But I am out here hustling to create a better life for them and myself! I am the luckiest girl in the world! I am apart of a family who can fight like cats and dogs for sure ha ha, but at the end of the day, when all is said and done, we have each others backs! We are so close and nothing can come between us! We are the Larson's! Faith, Family, Football! The 3 F's! Its how we live our life! "Football is not just a game, it's our life!" Ha ha! My family is the best ever and the people who get the wonderful opportunity of marrying into this family are one lucky S.O.B.s!
Remember that the road is suppose to be hard and the things that are worth having in life are always the hardest to get! But, if you give it your all and fight for the things you want out of life, you will be amazed at the life you will create for yourself and the amazing human being you will turn into! I feel sorry for the one's who want or expect people to just give them hand outs! For they are truly missing out on some of lives greatest experiences!
Remember who you are and the name you are representing! I am a Larson and a Daughter of God! I have my flaws and stumble and fall a lot, but I am constantly trying to do my best and become better! (But then again being a hell raiser from time to time def keeps things interesting ha ha!) Always be a first rate version of yourself and not a second rate version of someone else!
XOXO Dolls!
Dedicated Diva
My aunt is getting married tomorrow to an amazing man! He has been such a blessing in hers and our lives! I am excited to have him be apart of my family and to be able to be apart of his! Again, I am a lucky girl! I have so many great examples of true love in my life to observe and learn from! From my incredible parents to my grandparents and aunts and uncles! I don't plan on getting married anytime soon (sorry parents no grand babies just yet.. at least not from me ha ha!) but I look forward to the day that I can share my life with an amazing man! Someone I can take care of and will take care of me. Someone who is my best friend! Someone who gets my crazy personality and twisted sense of humor! Someone I trust and is easy to open up too! Someone I can stay up all night talking to and laugh with over everything and anything! Right now I am focused on my career so I can help provide a great life for my current family and for my future family! But trust your girl! I am gonna be the best wife and mother you have ever seen! I am gonna have so much fun taking care of my man and raising an amazing family with him! Until then, I am bustin my booty to make my dreams reality and getting myself prepared financially, mentally, physically, and spiritually to one day fall in love and start a family! Like I said before, it'll all happen in due time! One of my favorite quotes: "Ladies, dance with God, He will let the perfect man cut in!"
Still on the grind and hustlin like crazy! So grateful for the job I have now, but if I can pick up a second one, baby girl can really get ahead of the game and get things crackin 10x faster!
I've said it so many times before and I will probably say it millions more! I love my life! It is the hardest time I have ever been through and the best all at the same time! The people that have come into my life in the past month are some pretty amazing people and I can't wait to continue on this amazing journey with them! Some will just be passing thru my life and others will stay, but I know that all of them have had an awesome impact on my life and I hope I have done the same for them!
I was able to talk to my mom for 1/2 hr tonight! I haven't been able to do that in over a month! I still shouldn't have tonight, but she is my best friend and it has been so hard not to be able to talk to her like that everyday! That is the only thing I hate about my life here in Cali, my family is not here! But I am out here hustling to create a better life for them and myself! I am the luckiest girl in the world! I am apart of a family who can fight like cats and dogs for sure ha ha, but at the end of the day, when all is said and done, we have each others backs! We are so close and nothing can come between us! We are the Larson's! Faith, Family, Football! The 3 F's! Its how we live our life! "Football is not just a game, it's our life!" Ha ha! My family is the best ever and the people who get the wonderful opportunity of marrying into this family are one lucky S.O.B.s!
Remember that the road is suppose to be hard and the things that are worth having in life are always the hardest to get! But, if you give it your all and fight for the things you want out of life, you will be amazed at the life you will create for yourself and the amazing human being you will turn into! I feel sorry for the one's who want or expect people to just give them hand outs! For they are truly missing out on some of lives greatest experiences!
Remember who you are and the name you are representing! I am a Larson and a Daughter of God! I have my flaws and stumble and fall a lot, but I am constantly trying to do my best and become better! (But then again being a hell raiser from time to time def keeps things interesting ha ha!) Always be a first rate version of yourself and not a second rate version of someone else!
XOXO Dolls!
Dedicated Diva
WWWOOOOWWWW!!!!
The last couple of days have been interesting to say the least! Found out yesterday that I am still not afraid and have no hesitation of telling people whats what and what is on your girls mind! Ha ha, I was very frustrated and def came off as a bit^%, but come to find out it was appreciated! Go figure! Ha ha! The funny thing was people thought I was mad! I was frustrated and tried to keep it lite by being sarcastic so I wouldn't get mad! Oh man, I think I would scare the silly outta people if they really saw me mad! Ha ha ha! Why do you think I try to be a bubbly, positive hot mess all the time ha ha!
Things have been going really well and something happened tonight that made your girl smile from ear to ear! Ha ha but shhhh! cause your girl ain't tellin! I'll leave it up to your fabulous imagination!
So, to shift gears a lil bit here... I worked the night shift tonight! So I got all the drunk couples in front of my stand making out ha ha! It was funny, then uncomfortable, then as weird as this sounds, made me wish I had someone to have insanely inappropriate public displays of affection with! How fun would it be to make out with a guy you really like and likes you back in public, having fun making others very uncomfortable ha ha! Posterity baby! As I was thinking about my crazy but awesome single status, I had to remind myself of something. As much as I would love to have someone to share my life with, to stay up all night talking and laughing about everything, someone I could trust with my secrets, and someone who is an amazing kisser, etc ha ha! As much as I want that now, I know it will all come in its own time! It sucks, and trust me, I hate hearing it lol! But, that special someone and I will be together when the time is right! Besides, my ideal Champ is someone I am friends with first! I wanna end up with my best friend! You can't rush things! Now some people may think I am crazy, "But what if he is dating someone else and comes and talks to you about her, won't that be too much!?" Sure, it would suck, but if you care about the person enough, you will stick it out! Because one of two things will happen. You will either end up falling head over heels for some one else and still have this amazing friendship, or you will end up with your best friend after all! Yeah there are some unfortunate things that could happen as well, but this chicka ain't no negative Nancy sweetheart!!
You just never know what life and love will bring, but you have to go into it with an open mind and open heart! You also can't be afraid! Afraid of rejection or afraid of falling in love! The best things in life are ALWAYS the HARDEST thing to get! You have to work for and work to keep it! You have to want to fight for it! I'll tell you one thing for sure, I want someone who is competitive for sure! Competition is always healthy, especially in a relationship!
It may be hard to just be friends with him for now or watch him with someone else, but ladies, be patient and be the woman that makes him not want to live his life without you! Be confident and sexy and be active in your life and passionate about something! Live your life and if he is still too stupid to realize what an amazing woman he has in front of him, kick his ass to the curb!! Ha ha! If you want people to think highly of you, you have to first think highly of yourself! Chasing after some jack ass who couldn't tell white trash from high class is definitely not thinking highly of yourself! Once you start raising the bar, the lil boys will disappear and the men will start stepping up! But you have to be the one to hold out for someone who will treat you like the FrKn AmZn Chicka that you are! Don't Settle!! Men who are worth anything, will be smart enough to step up to the plate and recognize the amazing angelic angel (or in my case... the sarcastic bad ass ha ha!) that God has so kindly blessed them with!! In the words of our Daddy's, "No man will ever be good enough!" So make sure you hold out for the one who gets the closest!
Going to talk to someone about a second job in the morning! I am gonna be one busy and tired chicka, but it will be worth it! Nothing worth having is ever easy and it shouldn't be! Can't wait to get over this mountain and stick it to all the haters! Thanks to all those who have really stepped up to help your girl out!! My pride has definitely taken a huge blow or two, but thats life right! Ha ha!
Your girl is a fighter and don't you ever forget that! If I die tomorrow and am remembered for anything, I want to be remembered for being the happiest and most positive sarcastic lil bad ass ya'll have ever met! I also wanna be remembered as the girl who put God first and her family! Nothing was ever more important to me then that!!! Then football and friends ha ha!!
Time to catch up on your girls beauty sleep! These sleepy looking bags under my eyes are big enough to keep a third world country warm ha ha! Lots of love! Go out and make someone happy today! XoXo!
Dedicated Diva!
Things have been going really well and something happened tonight that made your girl smile from ear to ear! Ha ha but shhhh! cause your girl ain't tellin! I'll leave it up to your fabulous imagination!
So, to shift gears a lil bit here... I worked the night shift tonight! So I got all the drunk couples in front of my stand making out ha ha! It was funny, then uncomfortable, then as weird as this sounds, made me wish I had someone to have insanely inappropriate public displays of affection with! How fun would it be to make out with a guy you really like and likes you back in public, having fun making others very uncomfortable ha ha! Posterity baby! As I was thinking about my crazy but awesome single status, I had to remind myself of something. As much as I would love to have someone to share my life with, to stay up all night talking and laughing about everything, someone I could trust with my secrets, and someone who is an amazing kisser, etc ha ha! As much as I want that now, I know it will all come in its own time! It sucks, and trust me, I hate hearing it lol! But, that special someone and I will be together when the time is right! Besides, my ideal Champ is someone I am friends with first! I wanna end up with my best friend! You can't rush things! Now some people may think I am crazy, "But what if he is dating someone else and comes and talks to you about her, won't that be too much!?" Sure, it would suck, but if you care about the person enough, you will stick it out! Because one of two things will happen. You will either end up falling head over heels for some one else and still have this amazing friendship, or you will end up with your best friend after all! Yeah there are some unfortunate things that could happen as well, but this chicka ain't no negative Nancy sweetheart!!
You just never know what life and love will bring, but you have to go into it with an open mind and open heart! You also can't be afraid! Afraid of rejection or afraid of falling in love! The best things in life are ALWAYS the HARDEST thing to get! You have to work for and work to keep it! You have to want to fight for it! I'll tell you one thing for sure, I want someone who is competitive for sure! Competition is always healthy, especially in a relationship!
It may be hard to just be friends with him for now or watch him with someone else, but ladies, be patient and be the woman that makes him not want to live his life without you! Be confident and sexy and be active in your life and passionate about something! Live your life and if he is still too stupid to realize what an amazing woman he has in front of him, kick his ass to the curb!! Ha ha! If you want people to think highly of you, you have to first think highly of yourself! Chasing after some jack ass who couldn't tell white trash from high class is definitely not thinking highly of yourself! Once you start raising the bar, the lil boys will disappear and the men will start stepping up! But you have to be the one to hold out for someone who will treat you like the FrKn AmZn Chicka that you are! Don't Settle!! Men who are worth anything, will be smart enough to step up to the plate and recognize the amazing angelic angel (or in my case... the sarcastic bad ass ha ha!) that God has so kindly blessed them with!! In the words of our Daddy's, "No man will ever be good enough!" So make sure you hold out for the one who gets the closest!
Going to talk to someone about a second job in the morning! I am gonna be one busy and tired chicka, but it will be worth it! Nothing worth having is ever easy and it shouldn't be! Can't wait to get over this mountain and stick it to all the haters! Thanks to all those who have really stepped up to help your girl out!! My pride has definitely taken a huge blow or two, but thats life right! Ha ha!
Your girl is a fighter and don't you ever forget that! If I die tomorrow and am remembered for anything, I want to be remembered for being the happiest and most positive sarcastic lil bad ass ya'll have ever met! I also wanna be remembered as the girl who put God first and her family! Nothing was ever more important to me then that!!! Then football and friends ha ha!!
Time to catch up on your girls beauty sleep! These sleepy looking bags under my eyes are big enough to keep a third world country warm ha ha! Lots of love! Go out and make someone happy today! XoXo!
Dedicated Diva!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Positive Thinking Baby!!
Today was a really great day! Had an amazing day at work and actually walked away with a lil bit of cash! What can I say, it pays to work them corners!! Ha ha just playin! Girl has had some trying, frustrating and stressful times lately, but you gotta stay positive! Tell yourself you are gonna have an amazing day and that good things are gonna happen! Even if they feel like they aren't! I did that today and had some pretty good things happen! Found a great lead for a potential 2nd job and got my flirt on with a sexy, ripped, 6'5" man who drives a Lambo! Yeah, you don't have to ask, you best believe he flirted back ha ha! Your girl might end up wit a suga daddy after all ha ha ha!
Now that I am starting to get some money coming in, I feel closer to getting things crackin wit my boxing and singing! It is absolutely amazing what kind of effect money has on one's situation!! I am so grateful for this experience! Girl has literally been stripped down of everything and starting over literally from scratch is an insanely humbling experience!! But, I can't wait to work my way to a lil bit of an easier life ha ha! Not too easy tho! I don't wanna turn into a brat... or should I say more of a brat ha ha ha!
There is a great chance that baby girl is gonna get a 2nd job! If I can do that, I can get stuff taken care of and then in a few months I can get things crackin out here!! Lil mamma is on her hustle for sure! Can't touch this baby! Ha ha!
Well sorry this is so short! I am wiped out and need to catch some ZZzz's! Good Night Ya'll!
XoXo
Dedicated Diva
Now that I am starting to get some money coming in, I feel closer to getting things crackin wit my boxing and singing! It is absolutely amazing what kind of effect money has on one's situation!! I am so grateful for this experience! Girl has literally been stripped down of everything and starting over literally from scratch is an insanely humbling experience!! But, I can't wait to work my way to a lil bit of an easier life ha ha! Not too easy tho! I don't wanna turn into a brat... or should I say more of a brat ha ha ha!
There is a great chance that baby girl is gonna get a 2nd job! If I can do that, I can get stuff taken care of and then in a few months I can get things crackin out here!! Lil mamma is on her hustle for sure! Can't touch this baby! Ha ha!
Well sorry this is so short! I am wiped out and need to catch some ZZzz's! Good Night Ya'll!
XoXo
Dedicated Diva
Monday, October 4, 2010
Busting my Ass at everything I do!
Today I found out that I barely missed the pay period for this cycle! Which means that I will have to wait another 2 weeks for her first paycheck! This would seriously suck and your girl would be in tons of trouble if we weren't gonna start getting a cut of the tips! Cause girl is down to her last 5 bucks! (But don't tell the parents, don't need them worrying about their lil girl!) Plus I got this! Your girl is definitely a survivor for sure!! Don't get me wrong, I have definitely had many moments where I have wanted to just break down and cry! I am broke, I can't do the things I need to do let alone the things I want to do for my career! I am so blessed to have a job, but these next few days and weeks are gonna be "fun" to say the least lol! On the other hand, I am incredibly grateful to be going through this mess! It has given me the chance to see my true colors and how strong I really am! (Don't worry Daddy didn't raise no Mary! Ha ha!) Plus, it has also given me the opportunity to become that much closer to my Heavenly Father and Savior Jesus Christ which has been amazing!!
People ask me what I will do if the music/boxing thing doesn't come through! First, I tell them that this is what I am meant to do and there is no plan B! I will die pursuing my dreams cause lil mama is not a 9-5 office girl! Free spirit for sure! I don't think people understand either! I have all the ingredients to making it big! Girl just has to be patient! I wanna be prepared to stick it out for years to come in this biz, not be thrown in, then chewed up and spit out because it came too fast!! Life is about the journey, not the destination!! I wanna enjoy the ride! Learn from the hard times and then when I finally make it... I won't have to say one word! Cause your girls talent and success will speak for itself!! Ha ha! Please keep the negative comments and the doubts coming! It gives me that much more motivation to succeed! Plus it will be so much more sweet to be able to stick it to you when I blow up on the scene! Your girl does not get mad and she does not get even! She lives her life to the fullest and gets her sexy on 24/7! That is my revenge! Why!? Because i kill em with kindness and how awesome is it to be living this amazing life when all you had to say was negative about it! You look like the jack ass! Ha ha! Hey Karma baby! Karma!!! And don't plan on being one of those fake ass people who join the band wagon when things turn around for your girl! You can't handle me at my worst, you don't get to experience the FrKn AmZn times! Life doesn't work that way suga!
You keep doubting! Baby girl's gonna keep hustlin! This is my life and Im doing things my way and you best believe that you are one lucky S.O.B. if I LET you be apart of it! Thats not cocky, that is real talk baby!
XoXo
Dedicated Diva
People ask me what I will do if the music/boxing thing doesn't come through! First, I tell them that this is what I am meant to do and there is no plan B! I will die pursuing my dreams cause lil mama is not a 9-5 office girl! Free spirit for sure! I don't think people understand either! I have all the ingredients to making it big! Girl just has to be patient! I wanna be prepared to stick it out for years to come in this biz, not be thrown in, then chewed up and spit out because it came too fast!! Life is about the journey, not the destination!! I wanna enjoy the ride! Learn from the hard times and then when I finally make it... I won't have to say one word! Cause your girls talent and success will speak for itself!! Ha ha! Please keep the negative comments and the doubts coming! It gives me that much more motivation to succeed! Plus it will be so much more sweet to be able to stick it to you when I blow up on the scene! Your girl does not get mad and she does not get even! She lives her life to the fullest and gets her sexy on 24/7! That is my revenge! Why!? Because i kill em with kindness and how awesome is it to be living this amazing life when all you had to say was negative about it! You look like the jack ass! Ha ha! Hey Karma baby! Karma!!! And don't plan on being one of those fake ass people who join the band wagon when things turn around for your girl! You can't handle me at my worst, you don't get to experience the FrKn AmZn times! Life doesn't work that way suga!
You keep doubting! Baby girl's gonna keep hustlin! This is my life and Im doing things my way and you best believe that you are one lucky S.O.B. if I LET you be apart of it! Thats not cocky, that is real talk baby!
XoXo
Dedicated Diva
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